My battles,

So here I am, about to get real personal with you.

As deep as it gets, well just about.

Vitiligo is a skin thing. A disease is what the doctors call it. Causing the loss of skin pigmentation. You lose your skin color. Covering your body at an unpredictable extent and rate, the cells that produce your skin pigmentation either die or stop doing what they should.

Well, I have it.

In my opinion to be a woman with Vitiligo is to lose [quite a bit of] confidence, to question your beauty continuously, your worth in societal views, but also to learn to appreciate the control and permanence that life allots you.  

It gives a whole new meaning to being comfortable in one’s own skin.

I believe Mary Pipher explains it best here, “Something dramatic happens to girls in early adolescence. Just as planes and ships disappear mysteriously into the Bermuda Triangle, so do the selves of girls go down in groves.”

The relationship with our body is the most intimate we’ll ever have. It’s the headquarters for our fears and anxieties, because of this it’s where most of our issues stem from.

 Throughout our life we yearn to connect, to belong. We learn how to obtain this feeling and when we do, we feel somewhat accomplished, it feels right.  The security of ourselves and those around us, becomes a safe haven.

Comfort is explained as the easing or alleviation of a person’s feelings of grief or distress. The questioning of any of those “safety nets” can cause a person to lose trust or comfort in even the most basic faculties of life.

And to anyone that has ever felt the loss of comfort or the loss of their foundation, I commend you on working your way back up. As an individual that is continuously working on her confidence and to stand on her own, I know how difficult that may be.

Vitiligo is my battle.

My continual battle with my body, mind and to be quite honest my trust within the world. I hope that all of you out there fighting your own battles feel the need to push forward every day, as I do my best to do.

Just know, I’m here for you as I hope all of you are for me.

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